所属专辑:Dan Bern
歌手: Dan Bern
时长: 07:33
Estelle - Dan Bern[00:00:00]
I was painting a still life this morning[00:00:28]
Of a throat lozenge sitting[00:00:31]
On a copy of Tropic of Cancer[00:00:32]
The only thing weird[00:00:34]
About it is that a year ago[00:00:35]
I never thought I'd paint anything again[00:00:37]
I decided I wasn't ever gonna paint again[00:00:39]
It didn't bother me too much Warhol's dead[00:00:42]
David Hockney's still alive [00:00:45]
I don't need to paint[00:00:47]
I painted over ten thousand paintings[00:00:50]
Sad ones funny ones [00:00:53]
Dark ones and light ones[00:00:55]
I've done haystacks and[00:00:56]
Rich old ladies by their pools[00:00:58]
Wearing nothing but a scarf[00:00:59]
I've painted everything there was to paint[00:01:02]
Now it was time to sit back give interviews[00:01:04]
Get on the internet hang out at club med[00:01:07]
Take stock of what I've done[00:01:10]
You know the best friend I ever had was a dog[00:01:13]
It sounds like a cliche[00:01:16]
Unless it's happened to you[00:01:17]
Some days that dog was the[00:01:19]
Only reason I even got out of bed[00:01:20]
That dog went everywhere with me[00:01:24]
And then I heard the crack addicts[00:01:26]
Were stealin' dogs and[00:01:28]
Selling them for animal research[00:01:29]
It sounded like an urban myth to[00:01:30]
Me like the mouse in the Coke bottle[00:01:32]
But I started leavin' her at home after that[00:01:33]
You know Paula was my wife for a while[00:01:36]
She ran off to Paris with[00:01:39]
The great grandson of Van Gogh[00:01:40]
A cartoonist who did[00:01:42]
Fashion graphics for Le Monde[00:01:43]
When Paula left she took[00:01:47]
My dog I never saw her again[00:01:48]
Except in the court during the custody battle[00:01:51]
She won and got to keep the dog[00:01:53]
And I didn't speak to anyone for months[00:01:55]
You know sometimes it feels[00:01:58]
Like there's so much that you need[00:02:01]
Sometimes the world is upside down[00:02:04]
Sometimes it seems like the only thing you need[00:02:10]
Is holdin' someone's[00:02:15]
Hand as you walk through town[00:02:17]
I started hanging around with Dino[00:02:29]
He used to run a poker game back east[00:02:31]
Now he has a little coffee shop [00:02:33]
Sells cappuccino to his old pals[00:02:35]
Tommy Chicago and Jimmy the Wig and Ugly Rose[00:02:37]
You know the best person I ever knew[00:02:40]
Was a Mormon woman named Estelle[00:02:42]
She still calls me drunk every few months[00:02:44]
And asks me stuff I don't want to talk about[00:02:46]
You can't talk to her long[00:02:49]
Unless you're drunk yourself[00:02:50]
Then we go all night[00:02:51]
Yeah she goes "Why baby [00:03:02]
Why baby why baby why[00:03:04]
Have you turned your back on love [00:03:06]
You had so many chances[00:03:08]
Why have you let 'em all go by "[00:03:09]
Well one morning I was sitting[00:03:14]
Out in front of Dino's place[00:03:15]
With Jake the Shears a guy[00:03:17]
From Philly who gives free mohawks[00:03:18]
There were a couple of young[00:03:20]
Painters I was hopin' to come by[00:03:21]
So I could give 'em some advice[00:03:22]
Yeah I was sittin' there updating my list of enemies[00:03:25]
When this girl walks in[00:03:28]
And the universe kind of stops[00:03:29]
Turned out she drank the same tea as me[00:03:31]
Don't take more than that[00:03:33]
To start a conversation sometimes[00:03:34]
She believed collage was[00:03:36]
The greatest of all the arts[00:03:37]
And was busy pasting pictures[00:03:39]
Of horses next to ads for laundry soap[00:03:40]
Next to Mohammed Ali [00:03:43]
She had a turquoise in her ear[00:03:44]
And said Rachmaninoff[00:03:46]
Was always in her head[00:03:46]
But later that day I was trying[00:03:48]
To describe her to Jimmy the Wig[00:03:50]
I couldn't find any words and[00:03:52]
I realized I'd started to sketch her chin[00:03:54]
Somehow it didn't look right [00:03:58]
I scratched it out and tried it again[00:04:00]
I filled an entire pad I threw[00:04:03]
It away I never even came close[00:04:06]
For a six days I sat at Dino's place[00:04:09]
The rain wouldn't quit[00:04:12]
And no one came in[00:04:14]
Finally on the seventh day[00:04:15]
It cleared and in she walked[00:04:17]
I asked her to sit with me[00:04:20]
And I bought her a cup of tea[00:04:22]
And I asked her to[00:04:24]
Model for me sometime[00:04:25]
That afternoon I was at a canvas[00:04:26]
She was wearing a yellow dress[00:04:28]
I swore if she let me I'd get it right[00:04:30]
I've painted over ten thousand paintings[00:04:32]
Sad ones funny ones [00:04:35]
Dark ones and light ones[00:04:36]
But sitting there it was like[00:04:38]
I couldn't even write my own name[00:04:39]
I apologized and said "It's been a few months[00:04:43]
If you have patience [00:04:45]
I'll get the hang of it again"[00:04:47]
In the next few weeks [00:04:48]
I painted her hundreds of times[00:04:50]
If I get the nose right the chin's too long[00:04:54]
If I get 'em both right the face is too thin[00:04:57]
But I keep after it and[00:05:00]
One day I I'll get it all right[00:05:01]
I painted a still life[00:05:28]
This morning of a throat lozenge[00:05:29]
Sitting on a copy of Tropic of Cancer[00:05:31]
The only thing was funny is that[00:05:33]
I never thought I'd paint anything again[00:05:35]
I think I might go visit Estelle[00:05:39]
Those Utah mountains are good for the soul[00:05:41]
I'll bring my brushes and some Jack Daniels[00:05:44]
And we can make up for lost time[00:05:46]
And she said "Why baby [00:05:49]
Why baby why baby why [00:05:51]
Baby why have you turned your back on love[00:05:53]
You had so many chances[00:05:55]
Why have you let 'em all go by "[00:05:56]
And she says "Why baby [00:06:00]
Why baby why baby why [00:06:02]
Baby why have you turned your back on love[00:06:03]
You had so many chances[00:06:06]
Why have you let 'em all go by "[00:06:07]
Sometimes it seems like[00:06:11]
There's so much that you need[00:06:15]
Sometimes the world is upside down[00:06:17]
Sometimes it seems[00:06:23]
Like the only thing you need[00:06:26]
Is holdin' someone's hand[00:06:29]
As you walk through town[00:06:31]