[00:00:00] So What If I Couldn't Take It - Jeffrey Lewis [00:00:11] So what if I just couldn't take it anymore [00:00:15] I'll just take a walk to the store [00:00:17] Looking for a bit of bottled rat poison to score [00:00:21] And I'll pour down my gullet to nullify the sullenness [00:00:24] If it's my destiny to kill me spill it in me [00:00:27] To begin to fulfill it give it a couple of minutes until it hits [00:00:33] But still it doesn't seem to be taking effect [00:00:36] I'm still walking erect what the heck what the hell [00:00:39] Well at least I paid the guy with a cheque [00:00:42] So if the Bodega janked me on the poison I drank [00:00:45] All I gotta do is place a cancel call to my bank [00:00:48] But they put me on hold when I told them the story [00:00:51] First I cursed in the phone but the music ignored me [00:00:53] And it played and it played for such a long time [00:00:59] And then a voice said "we'll be with you soon just stay on the line" [00:01:02] But just at that second my neck broke out in a sweat [00:01:05] I said "I bet this is it - the poison's starting to hit" [00:01:06] I felt sick and in pain I dropped the phone to the ground [00:01:12] And an operator came and said "can I help you now " [00:01:15] But all that she could hear was just the sound of my death as I gasped into the set [00:01:19] "Just let the guy cash the cheque" with my last rattling breath [00:01:21] And the burning bottle of crap that I sickly held in my lap [00:01:26] I quickly turned on the cap out of concern for the rats [00:01:31] So what if I just couldn't take it anymore [00:01:43] So what if I just couldn't take it anymore [00:01:47] I'll just take the decision to walk on the bridge and try to fly like a pigeon [00:01:53] And I tramp up the ramp and all the bicycles pass [00:01:56] And I just can't help but laugh when I think back on my past [00:01:59] And all of the retarded mistakes that I made [00:02:01] The broken-hearted dismay that started from the first grade all the way up to today [00:02:05] And the walkway is steep and the cars are all beeping [00:02:10] And the people are sailing to wherever they're sailing [00:02:13] And I'm climbing the railings [00:02:16] I plan to stand and decide but I just slip and I dive [00:02:21] And all the drunks on the side start to hold up their signs [00:02:24] Mostly 7s and 9s but now and then is a 10 [00:02:26] And if I fell to earth I'd be dead that's for sure [00:02:31] But like I said before it's only water [00:02:33] And it's worthless 'cos it isn't on purpose [00:02:35] But I bob to the surface [00:02:39] But a large garbage barge comes [00:02:44] And it drops 20 tonnes of toxic waste on my face [00:02:47] And as I sink from the sun to whatever's to come [00:02:50] My last sight is the Bums who all change their signs into 3s 2s and 1s [00:02:55] And then after this discourse [00:02:56] There's a 3 6 - of course it must be from Pitchfork [00:02:59] So what if I just couldn't take it anymore [00:03:13] So what if I just couldn't take it anymore [00:03:17] Staring down at the floor staring up at the ceiling [00:03:19] 'Cos I never get used to always feeling so unglued [00:03:22] Need new emails to read through while I eat old Chinese food [00:03:27] I don't want a life that's like this just take a knife to my wrist quick [00:03:29] All I've got is this chopstick but I could still make the plot thick [00:03:32] Just for the sake of context if I break it with my fist [00:03:35] For fun against my chest run into the wall next [00:03:39] And I'll frown at the gash then lie down in the bath with some Sylvia Plath [00:03:43] How many pages will pass until I'm facing my last [00:03:46] I didn't major in Math so I won't wager no cash [00:03:51] But truth is stranger than fashion [00:03:52] And the danger is that all of the blood will amass [00:03:54] And the tub will fill-up so fast [00:03:56] 'Til I'm encased like a crab in a bathtub-shaped scab [00:03:58] They'll have to take in a cab and scrape off in a lab [00:04:03] So what if I just couldn't take it anymore [00:04:15] So what if I just couldn't take it anymore