This Can't Be Life - Jay-Z Written by:Dwight Grant/Leon Huff/Malik Cox/Kenneth Gamble/Kanye West/Shawn Carter/Brad Jordan Geah whassup Where's all my street niggaz project niggaz Real niggaz worldwide Let's reflect e'rybody got a story We all ghetto B here's mine Geah See I was born in sewage born to make bomb music Flow tight like I was born Jewish Used the streets as a conduit I kept arms 38 longs inside my mom's Buick At any given moment Shawn could lose it be on the news Iron cuffs arms through it or stuffed with embalmin' fluid Shit I'm going through it mom dukes too Tears streaming down her pretty face she got her palms to it My life is getting too wild I need to bring some sort kinda calm to it 'Bout to lose it voices screaming Don't do it It's like '93 '94 'bout the year That Big and Mag dropped and Illmatic rocked Outta every rag drop and the West had it locked Everybody doing 'em I'm still scratchin' on the block Like damn I'ma be a failure Surrounded by thugs drugs and drug paraphenalia Cops courts and their thoughts is to derail us Three time felons in shorts with jealous thoughts Trying figure where your mail is guesstimate the weight you selling So they can send shots straight to your melon wait It gets worse baby momma water burst Baby came out stillborn still I gotta move on Though my heart still torn life gone from her womb Don't worry if it was meant to be it'll be soon This can't be life this can't be love This can't be right there's gotta be more this can't be us This can't be life this can't be love This can't be right there's gotta be more this can't be us Chill dog Second oldest born from Michelle Brown my mother Hell bound grew with two sisters and one brother Pop wasn't around so many stories that's another I'm thinking damn how my older sister gon' make me tougher When steel sharpens steel I'ma keep it real I'm tired of trying to hide my pain behind the syrups and pills Dead to the world stretched out like a corpse for real Y'all niggaz thinking what y'all reading in The Source is real What my life like you looking at the source it's real What your life like Mine dog of course it's real Passing judgment you niggaz second guessing Beans Cause you don't eat swine don't make you Amin Dog you know a couple suras out the Qur'an I guess you all on your din and I ain't on mine Stop that Akki 'fore I send shots though your body Make 'em feel hell on earth before Allah drop thee I feel the line's drawn here nutting more can stop me Till them feds pick me up or them boys pop me There's only three things that make Mac not act like Beans Amatullah Tisha Po Aldin Samir Amin My seeds dog gotta teach 'em that before I leave dog Shit I know that I'ma see 'em when I leave dog I come back in the afterlife Like f**k it I done touched hell twice what's the meaning This can't be life this can't be love This can't be right there's gotta be more this can't be us This can't be life this can't be love This can't be right there's gotta be more this can't be us Now as I walk into the studio to do this with Jig' I got a phone call from one of my nigs Said my homeboy Reek he just lost one of his kids And when I heard that I just broke into tears And see in the second hand you don't really know how this is But when it hits that close to home you feel the pain at the crib So I called mine and saddened my wife with the bad news Now we both depressed counting our blessings cause Brad's two Praying for young souls to laugh atlife through the stars Loving your kids just like you was ours And I'm hurting for you dog but ain't nobody pain is like yours I just know that heaven'll open these doors And ain't no bright side to losing life but you can view it like this God's got open hands homey he in the midst of good company Who loves all and hates not one And one day you gon' be wit your son I could've rapped about my hard times on this song But heaven knows I woulda been wrong I wouldn'ta been right it wouldn'ta been love It wouldn'ta been life it wouldn'ta been us This can't be life This can't be life this can't be love This can't be right there's gotta be more this can't be us