[00:00:00] All In My Head(feat. Royce Da 5'9" and Kobe) (Explicit) - Joe Budden [00:00:24] Maybe it started with Slaughterhouse or was it tour life [00:00:27] Maybe it wouldn't had started at all if I had your life [00:00:30] Maybe it was needed or I was thinking immorally [00:00:32] If I wasn't myself could I say I gave the fans All of Me [00:00:36] Can't decide if I'm more ashamed of what they saw of me [00:00:39] Than I am of ignoring all the lessons that was taught to me [00:00:42] Headed up field but couldn't dodge the last tackler [00:00:46] How could a forward thinker move so a** backwards [00:00:48] How could a dude with no regrets at all willing to bet it all [00:00:51] Not realize that quicker demise how could I neglect it all [00:00:54] I'm so seasonal some of you knew id spring back [00:00:57] With a heart this cold how'd ya'll think I'd be receptive to fall [00:01:00] I'm plenty comfortable when danger's around [00:01:02] And even more so when strangers around [00:01:04] In a bigger picture was sicker down on my triggers [00:01:07] And all the alarm enforcers [00:01:08] Down to a ni**a that I'm about for drugs and liquor or the harm it causes [00:01:12] Life and death I tried to lynch myself [00:01:14] Thought I could keep it all a secret I convinced myself [00:01:17] But really the folk that loved me they could tell I was loakin [00:01:20] I couldn't see him cry me a river cause it fell in the ocean [00:01:23] Numb to my words now maybe felt it was open [00:01:26] I cut so many people loose to any need help with devotion [00:01:29] That's just some of the things I ask my Lord the savior [00:01:33] And when He calls to me well He have done us all a favor [00:01:36] How did I make it here [00:01:41] Who I are [00:01:44] I feel so lost [00:01:48] Now I'm not seeing it clear [00:01:53] Is it my fault [00:01:55] Is it my fault [00:01:58] It's all in my head [00:01:59] I'm looking around like this can't be happening [00:02:02] Round of applause for the angry rappers [00:02:05] Lord my girl cried me a flood then me a river [00:02:08] That's love depending on me when I'm a dependent on liquor [00:02:11] I'm up in the shoe store she got no love to show [00:02:14] You ever look at a b**ch she was f**king behind your [00:02:16] B**ch back like f**k I was f**kin you for come on [00:02:18] I'm an artist so I'm intelligent [00:02:19] I would tell you to do some soul searchin [00:02:21] But it's hangin up in my closet with your skeleton [00:02:23] That's gotta be a God's work even a diamond gotta be polished first [00:02:27] The quarter is on the loose and I ain't been out here getting my dollars' worth [00:02:30] I had to remove the goggles first [00:02:31] To see through the sippin patrone and 50 phonies for [00:02:34] I need to go get me a kidney doner [00:02:36] Guru Nate Dogg go head blink your eye [00:02:39] Your doctor told me you close go ahead drink and die [00:02:42] Buried under the stone where the patrone 5th sits by [00:02:44] That reads hella somebody who never wanted to be this guy [00:02:48] How did I make it here [00:02:53] Who I are [00:02:56] I feel so lost [00:03:00] Now I'm not seeing it clear [00:03:05] Is it my fault [00:03:07] Is it my fault [00:03:10] It's all in my head [00:03:12] They say knowledge is power great cause every day I learn [00:03:15] As of late been having revelations bout this hate turn [00:03:18] Hate the way they judge me 2 I got the case adjourned [00:03:21] Hated the belly of the beast to I became it's tapeworm [00:03:24] When I said I'd stop getting high tried to say it's done [00:03:27] No I'm the type to walk through the fire to check the way it burn [00:03:30] They say my brain is off I say how can it be [00:03:33] If I'm out my mind how can I be in sanity [00:03:35] The people used to say that I was scared of progress [00:03:39] They don't know how hard a ni**a tried to advance [00:03:41] But I don't know who's more to blame [00:03:43] Is it them for really not knowing me [00:03:45] Or is it me for never really giving them a chance [00:03:47] Get too close be too big of a threat