[00:00:00] Ghosts - Slaine [00:00:02] Ohh [00:00:04] This is my life this is my life [00:00:18] Yo [00:00:19] I always knew I was different even back at six [00:00:22] They tied me to a pole with a rope and wrapped my wrists [00:00:24] They punched me and kicked me and slapped me with sticks [00:00:27] In the ribs and the kids called my daddy a b**ch [00:00:29] Said my father's a faggot it aggravated my dealings [00:00:31] I didn't know no better but knew I hated the feeling [00:00:34] From laughing at me whenever they would crack jokes [00:00:36] On my way to the store to get a pack of smokes [00:00:39] For my nana Benson and hedges 100 with a note from my grandmother [00:00:42] It's something she suffers from arthritis [00:00:44] Hands stuck together drop down elbows [00:00:46] It looked like baseball she called marshmellows [00:00:48] I could see the silho uettes of the past hello [00:00:51] The days back when I had those rain tap windows [00:00:53] To peer through and just look at the world [00:00:56] I was just a boy I never knew what would occur [00:00:58] Blur ahead to myself as a half dead fiend [00:01:01] F ked up in my head from what happened between [00:01:03] With my body on the floor I'm asleep from beans [00:01:06] My life flashed before me I peeped the scenes [00:01:08] Yeah the ghosts talk to me in my head [00:01:11] They said I'm already dead [00:01:14] And I had so much blood to be shed [00:01:16] But I can't spill it no more [00:01:19] And I have died a thousand deaths [00:01:21] On the ground so out of breath [00:01:23] Yeah I've been down that flight of steps [00:01:26] But you can't kill me no more [00:01:28] It's a chain we all grew up with the same dreams [00:01:30] But hit the potholes in the street and became fiends [00:01:33] Got in fist fights every night with the same team [00:01:35] Right around the time that jay the wood came clean [00:01:37] I was hurt from my broken home and going crazy [00:01:40] Rolling up coke in bones and so I maybe [00:01:42] One these troubled youth in this modern day America [00:01:45] Thank god I'm still alive I gotta say it's erykah [00:01:47] Who was always by my side that's why I love her forever [00:01:50] She knows my whole pain and all the stormy weather [00:01:52] That I been through what I overcame and what it meant too [00:01:55] Other people looked at me like a freak with a pencil [00:01:57] I got enough rage for every page in my books [00:01:59] What I done I should be in a cage with the crooks [00:02:02] But I'm not barely by the skin of my teeth [00:02:04] Maybe there's a reason time for me to finish this beef [00:02:06] Yeah the ghosts talk to me in my head [00:02:10] They said I'm already dead [00:02:12] And I had so much blood to be shed [00:02:15] But I can't spill it no more [00:02:17] And I have died a thousand deaths [00:02:19] On the ground so out of breath [00:02:22] Yeah I've been down that flight of steps [00:02:24] But you can't kill me no more [00:02:26] It's the dawn of a new day and I've been given a platform [00:02:29] All the moments in my life I got a rap for 'em [00:02:31] I gotta tell my story bring it back for 'em [00:02:34] Either that or I could slip away in the cracks gone [00:02:36] You think I'd let it happen well that's wrong [00:02:38] Who would've ever thought I would be saved by a rap song [00:02:41] I gotta capitalize cause I'm rapping with guys [00:02:43] That I idolized as a kid I'm revitalized [00:02:46] Always looked at life through a writer's eyes [00:02:48] I learned this sh*t is hard really man you either fight or die [00:02:51] So I'm a stand up and fight that fight [00:02:53] I'm going home broken bone and bloody tonight [00:02:55] You motherf**kers ever look and study your life [00:02:58] And see how fade and greyed they've made whatever you like [00:03:00] Cause I can feel it in my f**king gut when I write [00:03:03] This pain is sweet I needed to be cut with this knife [00:03:05] Yeah the ghosts talk to me in my head [00:03:08] They said I'm already dead [00:03:11] And I had so much blood to be shed [00:03:13] But I can't spill it no more