[00:00:00] Fear and Trembling (畏惧与颤栗) - Gang of Youths (热血青春帮) [00:00:01] Written by:David Le'aupepe [00:00:16] There's a moosehead hanging [00:00:17] From a wall at a bar at a [00:00:20] Nondescript part of the street [00:00:24] There's a long haired boy [00:00:26] Making eyes at a john [00:00:28] By the lamplights hung from the beams [00:00:32] We're at the stumbling phase [00:00:34] Of the midnight waltz [00:00:36] At a bookend to the weirdest of weeks [00:00:40] Me and Arnold walk [00:00:42] Pretty hammered and crying [00:00:43] Hey I'll miss you man when you leave [00:00:47] Yeah I'll miss you when you leave [00:00:51] 'Coz there are feelings that are strong [00:00:52] And there are ones that are mixed [00:00:54] At the dawn of my young life's eclipse [00:00:58] I was a boy once now [00:01:00] I'm a kind of adult [00:01:02] Catching up on the cool sh*t I missed [00:01:05] 'Coz we were raised where the pastors [00:01:07] They danced in the aisles [00:01:10] With a moshpit up front full of youths [00:01:13] So if faith is to lose [00:01:15] The mind to win God [00:01:17] Then I guess I got nothing to prove [00:01:21] I guess I got nothing to prove [00:01:52] I was waiting on the future [00:01:54] But the future only came [00:01:56] In the form of greying matter [00:01:59] In my only father's brain [00:02:01] I'm not afraid of acquiescing [00:02:03] To the trials of his old age [00:02:06] But of missing all the humanness [00:02:08] He'll show when I'm away [00:02:10] And the part of me unspoken [00:02:12] And the part that's self assured [00:02:15] Are belligerents divergent [00:02:17] In a psychic civil war [00:02:19] But I'm a crier and a fighter [00:02:21] Not a faker and a fraud [00:02:24] So if losing my religion [00:02:26] Is the way to finding God [00:02:28] Then light it up [00:02:30] The shadow's in my blood [00:02:33] Oh a weary heart they say [00:02:34] It shatters it all [00:02:37] So light it up [00:02:39] It's bound to be much worse [00:02:42] When you get get get get back to the summer [00:02:44] If you get get get get back to the summer at all [00:02:55] There's an omen now of frailty [00:02:57] Hanging heavy from my face [00:02:59] A kind of existential loneliness [00:03:02] That struts and frets a stage [00:03:04] And disappears unsatiated by [00:03:07] The rhythms of the day [00:03:09] Still illuminating nothing [00:03:11] But the love I turn away [00:03:13] And I still care about the present [00:03:16] And the weight of circumstance [00:03:18] To the muckraking of cowards [00:03:20] And a symphony of sass [00:03:22] While I have questions of mortality [00:03:25] The clear and present vast [00:03:27] They just yell the words pretentious [00:03:29] With no clarity or class [00:03:31] So light 'em up [00:03:33] Their shadows in my blood [00:03:36] Oh a weary heart they say [00:03:38] It shatters it all [00:03:40] So line 'em up [00:03:42] It's bound to be much worse [00:03:45] Oh when you get get get get back to the summer [00:03:47] If you get get get get back to the summer [00:03:50] When you get get back to the summer [00:03:52] If you get get get get back to the summer at all [00:04:03] One time [00:04:22] I feel everything [00:04:25] Yeah I feel it all [00:04:27] And I feel it in my bones and in my f**king skull [00:04:31] I feel everything [00:04:33] Yeah I feel it all [00:04:35] And I never look back [00:04:36] Oh and I feel it in my heart attack [00:04:40] And I feel it all [00:04:42] I feel everything [00:04:45] And I know it's weird [00:04:46] And I fought the fear and trembling [00:04:49] 'Coz I feel it all [00:04:51] I feel everything [00:04:54] And I never looked back [00:04:55] This fear this fear is trembling [00:05:06] And I waited on forever [00:05:08] But forever never came [00:05:10] Just a latent sense of loyalty [00:05:12] To the things I love in vain [00:05:14] And now I'm terrified of loving [00:05:17] 'Coz I'm terrified of pain [00:05:20] And of missing out on human things [00:05:22] By cowering away [00:05:24] So light 'em up [00:05:26] Those shadows in my blood