[00:00:00] Deathbed - Relient K [00:00:33] I can smell the death on the sheets covering me [00:00:40] I can't believe this is the end [00:00:54] But this is my deathbed [00:01:00] I lie here alone [00:01:04] If I close my eyes tonight [00:01:10] I know I'll be home [00:01:18] The year was 1941 [00:01:22] I was eight years old and far far too young [00:01:26] To know that the stories of battles and glory [00:01:30] Was a tale a kind mother made up for her son [00:01:34] You see [00:01:35] Dad was a traveling preacher [00:01:39] Teaching the words of the teacher [00:01:43] But mother had sworn he ran off to the war [00:01:47] And died there with honor somewhere on a beach there [00:01:51] But he left once to never return [00:01:55] Which taught me that I should unlearn [00:01:59] Whatever I thought a father should be [00:02:03] I abandoned that thought like he abandoned me [00:02:07] By 47 I was 14 [00:02:11] I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine [00:02:16] I smoked until I threw up yet I still lit em up for 30 more years [00:02:23] Like a machine [00:02:26] So right there you have it [00:02:30] Now one filthy habit [00:02:34] Is what got me where I am today [00:02:39] I can smell the death on the sheets covering me [00:02:45] I can't believe this is the end [00:02:55] I can hear those sad memories still haunting me [00:03:01] So many things I'd do again [00:03:13] But this is my deathbed [00:03:18] I lie here alone [00:03:21] If I close my eyes tonight [00:03:26] I know I'll be home [00:03:30] Got married on my 21st [00:03:35] 8 months before my wife would give birth [00:03:39] It's easier to be sure you love someone [00:03:42] When her father inquires with the barrel of a gun [00:03:47] The union was far from harmonious [00:03:51] No two people could have been more alone than us [00:03:55] The years would go by and she'd love someone else [00:03:59] And I'd realized I hadn't been loved yet myself [00:04:03] From there it's your typical speel [00:04:07] Yeah if life was a highway I was drunk at the wheel [00:04:11] I was helping the loose ends all fall apart [00:04:16] Yeah I swear I was destined to fail [00:04:19] And fail from the start [00:04:22] I bowled about six times a week [00:04:26] The bottle of beam kept the memories from me [00:04:30] Our marriage had taken a seven ten split [00:04:34] And along with my pride the ex wife took the kids [00:04:39] I can smell the death on the sheets covering me [00:04:45] I can't believe this is the end [00:04:55] I can hear those sad memories still haunting me [00:05:01] So many things I'd do again [00:05:13] But this is my deathbed [00:05:18] I lie here alone [00:05:21] If I close my eyes tonight [00:05:26] I know I'll be home [00:05:30] I was so scared of jesus [00:05:32] But he sought me out [00:05:34] Like the cancer in my lungs [00:05:36] Is killing me now [00:05:38] And I've given up hope on the days I have left [00:05:43] But I cling to the hope of my life in the next [00:05:47] Then jesus showed up said before we go up [00:05:51] I thought that we might reminisce [00:05:54] See one night in your life when you turned out the lights [00:05:59] You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness [00:06:05] You cried wolf with tears they soaked your fur [00:06:11] The blood dripped from your fangs [00:06:14] You said what have I done [00:06:19] You loved that lamb with every sinful bone [00:06:25] And there you wept alone [00:06:29] Your heart was so contrite [00:06:34] You said jesus please forgive me of my crimes [00:06:42] Sanctify this withered heart of mine [00:06:49] Stay with me until my life is through [00:06:56] And on that day please take me home with you [00:07:05] I can smell the death on the sheets covering me [00:07:11] I can't believe this is the end [00:07:23] I can hear you whisper to me it's time to leave [00:07:29] You'll never be lonely again [00:07:42] But this was my deathbed [00:07:47] I died there alone [00:07:51] When I closed my eyes tonight [00:07:56] You carried me home [00:10:01] I am the way follow me and take my hand [00:10:11] And I am the truth embrace me and you'll understand