[00:05:24] Artist:saul williams [00:05:24] Songs Title:black stacey [00:05:24] I used to hump my pillow at night. [00:05:24] The type of silent prayer to help myself prepare for the light. [00:05:24] Me and my cousin Duce would rank the girls between one and ten [00:05:24] and the highest number got to be my pillows pretend. [00:05:24] Now I apologize to every high ranker. [00:05:24] But you taught me how to dream and so I also thank you. [00:05:24] I never had the courage to approach you at school. [00:05:24] We joked around a lot and I know you thought I dressed cool. [00:05:24] But I was just covering up all the insecurities that came bubbling up. [00:05:24] My complexion had [00:05:24] me stuck in an emotional rut, 'like the [00:05:24] time you Flavor Flaved me and you called me [00:05:24] Yo Chuck, they say [00:05:24] you're too black, man. [00:05:24] I think I'm too black. [00:05:24] Mom, do you think I'm too black? I think I'm too black. [00:05:24] Black Stacey. [00:05:24] They called me Black Stacey. [00:05:24] I never got to be myself 'cause to [00:05:24] myself I always was Black Stacey, in polka dots [00:05:24] and paisley, a double goose [00:05:24] and bally shoes, you thought it wouldn't phase me. [00:05:24] I was Black Stacey. [00:05:24] the preachers' son from Haiti [00:05:24] who rhymed a lot and always got the dance steps at the party. [00:05:24] I was Black Stacey. [00:05:24] you thought it wouldn't faze me, but it did [00:05:24] 'cause I was just a kid. [00:05:24] I used to use bleaching creme, 'til [00:05:24] Madame CJ Walker walked into my dreams. [00:05:24] I dreamt of being white and [00:05:24] complimented by you, but the only shiny [00:05:24] black thing that you liked was my shoes. [00:05:24] Now, I apologize for bottling up [00:05:24] all the little things you said that warped my head and my gut. [00:05:24] Even though I always told you not to [00:05:24] brag about the fact that your great grand [00:05:24] mother was raped by her slave master. Yeah, I became [00:05:24] militant too. [00:05:24] So it was clear on every level I was blacker than you. [00:05:24] I turned you on to Malcolm X and [00:05:24] Assata Shakur in my three quarter elephant goose with the fur. [00:05:24] I had the high top fade [00:05:24] with the steps on the side. [00:05:24] I had the two finger ring, rag top on the ride. [00:05:24] I had the sheep skin, name [00:05:24] belt, Lee suit, Kangol, acid wash, Roscoe's chicken and waffle. [00:05:24] Black Stacey. [00:05:24] They called me Black Stacey. [00:05:24] I never got to be myself 'cause to myself I always was Black Stacey, in polka dots [00:05:24] and paisley, a double goose and bally shoes, you thought it wouldn't phase me. [00:05:24] I was Black Stacey. the preachers' [00:05:24] son from Haiti who [00:05:24] rhymed a lot and always got the dance steps at the party. [00:05:24] I was Black Stacey. [00:05:24] You thought it wouldn't faze me, but it did 'cause I was just a kid. [00:05:24] Now here's a little [00:05:24] message for you. [00:05:24] All you baller playa's got [00:05:24] some insecurities too, that you could cover up, bling it up, cash in [00:05:24] and ching ching it up, hope no [00:05:24] one will bring it up, lock it down and string it up. [00:05:24] Or you can share your essence with us, 'cause everything about you couldn't be rugged [00:05:24] and ruff. [00:05:24] And even though you tote a [00:05:24] glock and you're hot on the [00:05:24] streets, if you dare to share your heart, we'll nod our heads to [00:05:24] its beat. [00:05:24] And you should do that, if nothing else, to prove [00:05:24] that a player like you could keep it honest and true. Don't mean to call your bluff but [00:05:24] mothaf**ka that's what I do. [00:05:24] You got platinum chain [00:05:24] then, son, I'm probably talking to you. [00:05:24] And you can call your gang, your posse and the rest of your crew. [00:05:24] And while you're at it get them addicts and the indigent too. I plan to have a whole army [00:05:24] by the time that I'm through to load their guns with songs they haven't sung.