所属专辑:A Crow Looked at Me
歌手: Mount Eerie
时长: 06:39
Ravens (乌鸦) - Mount Eerie[00:00:00]
In October 2015[00:00:14]
I was out in the yard[00:00:19]
I just finished splitting up the scrap two by fours into kindling[00:00:23]
Glanced up at the half moon pink chill refinery cloud light[00:00:31]
Two big blackbirds flew over their wings whooshing and low[00:00:38]
Two ravens but only two[00:00:45]
Their black feathers tinted in the sunset[00:00:52]
I knew these birds were omens but of what I wasn't sure[00:01:07]
They were flying out toward the island where we hoped to move[00:01:16]
You were probably inside[00:01:23]
You were probably aching wanting not to die[00:01:27]
Your body transformed[00:01:30]
I couldn't bear to look so I turned my head west[00:01:34]
Like an early death[00:01:41]
Now I can only see you on the fridge in lifeless pictures[00:01:45]
And in every dream I have at night[00:01:53]
And in every room I walk into[00:01:57]
Like here where I sit the next October[00:02:00]
Still seeing your eyes[00:02:04]
Pleading and afraid full of love[00:02:08]
Calling out from another place because you're not here[00:02:16]
I watched you die in this room then[00:02:26]
I gave your clothes away[00:02:29]
I'm sorry I had to[00:02:35]
Now I'll move[00:02:41]
I will move with our daughter[00:02:52]
We will ride over water[00:02:56]
With your ghost[00:03:01]
Underneath the boat[00:03:04]
What was you is now but bones[00:03:07]
And I cannot be at home[00:03:11]
I'm running reef flailing[00:03:15]
The second time I went to Haida Gwaii it was[00:03:37]
Just me and our daughter[00:03:41]
Only one month after you died my face was still contorted[00:03:45]
Driving up and down boots wet inside aimless and weeping[00:03:53]
I needed to return to the place where we discovered that[00:04:00]
Childless we could blanket ourselves in the moss there[00:04:07]
For our long lives[00:04:18]
But when we came home you were pregnant[00:04:22]
And then our life together was not long[00:04:26]
You had cancer and you were killed[00:04:31]
And I'm left living like this[00:04:35]
Crying on the logging roads with your ashes in a jar[00:04:38]
Thinking about the things I'll tell you[00:04:44]
When you get back from wherever it is that you've gone[00:04:49]
But then I remember death is real[00:04:57]
And I'm still here in Masset[00:05:04]
It's August 12th 2016[00:05:07]
You've been dead for one month and three days[00:05:11]
And we are sleeping in the forest[00:05:16]
There is sand still in the blankets from the beach[00:05:20]
Where we released you from the jar[00:05:25]
When we wake up all the clothes that we left out are[00:05:30]
Cold and damp just from the air permeating[00:05:34]
The ground opens up[00:05:41]
Surrounded by growth[00:05:46]
Nurse logs with layers of moss and life[00:05:49]
Beyond the cedars the sound of water[00:05:54]
Thick salal[00:05:58]
And God like huckleberries[00:06:00]
The ground absorbs and remakes whatever falls[00:06:05]
Nothing dies here[00:06:12]
But here is where I came to grieve[00:06:15]
To dive into it with you[00:06:19]
With your absence[00:06:24]
But I keep picking you berries[00:06:26]