《Dreaming Or Sinking》歌词

歌曲： Dreaming Or Sinking

所属专辑：I’m Almost Happy Here， But I Never Feel At Home

歌手： Hotel Books

时长： 03:18

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Dreaming Or Sinking - Hotel Books[00:00:02]

I tried looking into her eyes to make sense of my own life[00:00:23]

But found senseless realisations [00:00:27]

I was reckless and she was justification;[00:00:28]

A vacation from the monotony I lived in [00:00:31]

And avoiding risk felt nice until I realized [00:00:34]

I was avoiding purpose [00:00:37]

And it's all new but I love her [00:00:39]

At least I think because[00:00:40]

I don't want to live so empty [00:00:41]

And I have this tendency to complicate things better[00:00:45]

Than I break things and[00:00:47]

She was somehow caught in the in between [00:00:49]

And forever means forever and that's[00:00:51]

What it will always mean [00:00:53]

And life is a reality except for when it's a dream [00:00:54]

And those are the moments that I can't seem to think [00:00:57]

But I make sense of my mess by making sense of her and me [00:01:00]

And this fear keeps me alive [00:01:03]

This fear of knowing that she could leave me [00:01:05]

And I could try [00:01:08]

But this fear fuels the flames [00:01:09]

That's why I feel like I'm going to die [00:01:11]

Cause she kept a part of me close by and[00:01:14]

I liked it the best I can [00:01:16]

And now that I know who[00:01:18]

I used to be it's hard to be happy with who I am [00:01:19]

And that's where she came in [00:01:22]

A half-baked smile and a love to pretend [00:01:24]

But prior to then[00:01:26]

Love was nothing more to me than a vacation [00:01:27]

A vacant motivation [00:01:30]

To avoid the means it takes to reach any real end [00:01:31]

A sense of salvation [00:01:34]

But also an element of bitter hope [00:01:36]

To cope with the rope that was tied around my neck [00:01:38]

And the saviour I hoped for was chased away [00:01:42]

Way back then [00:01:44]

When I found vices to take the place of all the things[00:01:45]

I wanted to be [00:01:48]

And I lost sight of me [00:01:51]

But I was told I could be anybody [00:01:52]

And I thought[00:01:54]

I could find purpose in loving someone who looks like me[00:01:55]

And I began dreaming or sinking [00:01:58]

Most nights they meant the same thing [00:02:00]

And when that salvation finally found me [00:02:02]

It was traded away for thirty pieces of silver [00:02:04]

Seems like that's not too much[00:02:07]

I guess but I sold my saviour for a whole lot less [00:02:08]

My two best friends [00:02:11]

Acceptance and a mirage of fake happiness [00:02:12]

And now the words I use to cling to as my refuge [00:02:15]

Now torture me in my head [00:02:18]

Forgive them father they know not what they do [00:02:19]

It's funny cause it seems like[00:02:22]

I did every time I lied to you [00:02:23]

And that's my only truth [00:02:26]

That I can't sleep at night[00:02:28]

And I can't get these things right [00:02:29]

And salvation escaped when she came into view [00:02:31]

And now I'm hoping my whole life isn't mistaken as you [00:02:33]

But there's no way of knowing [00:02:37]

When all I'm doing is coping [00:02:39]

With my own pride [00:02:42]

And my past would fight with me hoping I would find truth [00:02:46]

But it's never a good idea to start a fight with a man[00:02:49]

Who has nothing to lose [00:02:51]

And I'm empty [00:02:55]

My heart is caving in [00:02:56]

And for whatever reason [00:03:00]

I finally let somebody in [00:03:03]

And I don't know what love is [00:03:07]

But I'm growing[00:03:09]