《Nothing Was the Same》歌词

歌曲： Nothing Was the Same

所属专辑：Run Wild， Young Beauty

歌手： Hotel Books

时长： 04:05

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I chose to believe every word I was fed[00:00:00]

And I thought the coals on my back were a product[00:00:02]

Of the lack you left when you stepped back[00:00:04]

And racked your brain for a reason to stay,[00:00:06]

But you could not seem to formulate any such thought in your head.[00:00:08]

So you left with nothing more than a reason you kept silent[00:00:12]

And my mind would riot stuck in self-perpetuated mental violence[00:00:14]

And dreams kept private.[00:00:18]

The ambition to fix this wish list of selfish misfit realist missions[00:00:19]

Contained within a vision of wishful thinking[00:00:23]

And sinking deep into a new bit of[00:00:25]

Misproportioned emotions leaking through a seeping truth[00:00:27]

Constructed by my need to feel important[00:00:31]

When you would look back and think[00:00:33]

Of all the little things that you regret.[00:00:34]

I just wanted you to think of me when you think back[00:00:36]

To all those little things that you regret.[00:00:38]

I spent so much time convincing myself that the rest of this mess[00:00:40]

That I stressed within this relationship was a product of the world’s oppressions,[00:00:42]

Not my deep desire to be needed.[00:00:46]

And it’s hard to admit but I guess I’ve come to terms with the fact[00:00:48]

That I just want to be needed,[00:00:51]

And I convinced myself that I needed to be needed.[00:00:52]

And if that was true, I would still be smiling[00:00:55]

Like you still today but for different reasons.[00:00:57]

I chose to dismiss the possible instance[00:01:00]

That the lips I love to kiss could form the words goodbye[00:01:01]

And it was a simple lie but I told it to you[00:01:04]

And like the captain of a sinking ship choosing to believe[00:01:06]

The bottom of the ocean was a better source of oxygen.[00:01:09]

It’s so nice and I still chose to believe I misinterpreted your dialect [00:01:12]

And everything you said about it.[00:01:15]

Your diction, your diatribe, posture, body language and connotations,[00:01:17]

All pointed in the same direction[00:01:21]

The selection of contingent messages postponed until further notice [00:01:23]

Because I was ashamed to admit the problem[00:01:27]

And pretend your happiness came from me[00:01:29]

And that your happiness was important.[00:01:31]

But we aborted the sorted truths we once distorted[00:01:33]

When I saw the shape of your dress when you wore it.[00:01:35]

And that was enough until it wasn’t[00:01:38]

And that’s when you finally felt supported.[00:01:40]

So the others courted you and you mentally recorded[00:01:42]

And endorsed the force perform of compliments you received came in[00:01:45]

And you felt empowered enough to take your final bow[00:01:49]

And find love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine.[00:01:52]

And that’s fine because I would do the same,[00:01:56]

And I would leave me. Not because I’m useless[00:01:58]

And not because I’m broken.[00:02:01]

Not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless.[00:02:02]

But because I saw value in your smile but not in your values,[00:02:05]

And I’m sorry, and I love you.[00:02:09]

And that’s why I can finally sleep at night,[00:02:12]

Because you are free and you can thrive,[00:02:15]

And I’m just happy I got to be a part of your life.[00:02:18]

I’m just happy I got to be a part of the journey[00:02:22]

That you call your life.[00:02:24]

And I finally feel fine because I spent so long trying[00:02:26]

To change you, not realizing I was the one who needed to change.[00:02:29]

I was selfish to assume you loved me more than you love yourself[00:02:33]

Even though I never felt the same. And there’s so many things[00:02:37]

That my selfishness tried to take away but you were the one[00:02:40]

That was the hardest to watch walk away.[00:02:43]

But thank you for letting me be a part of everything[00:02:47]

You were building and creating and finding truth and life[00:02:49]

And you were relating so much beauty, and I love you, and I’m sorry.[00:02:52]

Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey.[00:03:00]

Thank you for letting me be me.[00:03:07]

And thank you for setting me free[00:03:12]

And showing me love in its full capacity.[00:03:17]