所属专辑:Li (f) e
歌手: Sage Francis
时长: 05:33
It's been a long and lonely trip but [00:00:30]
I'm glad that I took it because it was well worth it. [00:00:32]
I got to read a couple books and do some research [00:00:34]
Before I reached my verdict. [00:00:36]
Never thought that I was perfect. [00:00:38]
Always thought that I had a purpose. [00:00:39]
Used to wonder if I'd live to see my first kiss. [00:00:41]
The most difficult thing I ever did [00:00:45]
Was recite my own words at a service [00:00:47]
Realizing the person I was addressing probably [00:00:49]
Wasn't looking down from heaven. [00:00:51]
Or cooking up something in hell's kitchen[00:00:53]
Trying to listen in or eaves drop [00:00:56]
From some another dimension. [00:00:57]
It was self serving just like this is. [00:00:59]
Conveniently religious on Easter Sunday and on Christmas. [00:01:01]
The television went from being a babysitter to a mistress. [00:01:05]
Technology made it easy for us[00:01:08]
To stay in touch while keeping a distance [00:01:10]
'Til we just stayed distant and never touched. [00:01:12]
Now all we do is text too much. [00:01:15]
I don't remember much from my youth. [00:01:16]
Maybe my memory is repressed. [00:01:18]
Or I just spent too much time [00:01:20]
Wondering if I'd live to have sex. [00:01:21]
Fell in love for the first time in 4th grade [00:01:23]
But I didn't have the courage to talk to her. [00:01:26]
In 8th grade I wrote her the note [00:01:28]
But I slipped it in someone else’s locker. [00:01:30]
Considered killing myself 'cause of that. [00:01:32]
It was a big deal. [00:01:34]
It was a blown cover. [00:01:35]
It was over for me. [00:01:36]
My goose was cooked. [00:01:37]
Stick a fork it me. [00:01:38]
The jig is up. [00:01:39]
I blew my chances the rest is history [00:01:40]
Our future was torn asunder. [00:01:42]
It became abundantly clear that [00:01:43]
I was only brought here to suffer. [00:01:44]
At least I didn't include my name. [00:01:47]
Thankfully I wrote the whole note in code [00:01:49]
And it had 10 layers of scotch tape safety [00:01:51]
Seal making it impossible to open. [00:01:53]
Plus it was set to self destruct. [00:01:55]
Whoever read it probably died…laughing. [00:01:57]
I wonder if they lived long enough [00:01:59]
To realize what happened. [00:02:00]
A year later I came to understand that [00:02:02]
Wasn't love that I was feeling for her. [00:02:05]
I had someone else to obsess over. [00:02:07]
I was older. I was very mature. [00:02:09]
I forged my time signature [00:02:11]
While practicing my parents autograph [00:02:12]
Cause I was failing math. [00:02:14]
Disconnected the phone when [00:02:16]
I thought the teacher would call my home. [00:02:17]
I checked the mailbox twice a day [00:02:19]
At the end of a long dirt road. [00:02:20]
Steamed open a couple envelopes like [00:02:22]
I was in private detective mode. [00:02:24]
If you snoop around long enough [00:02:26]
For something in particular [00:02:28]
You're guaranteed to find it. [00:02:29]
For better or worse that's how I learned that[00:02:31]
It's best to just keep some things private. [00:02:33]
It was the best of times. [00:02:36]
It was the end of times. [00:02:40]
It was the best of times. [00:02:45]
It was the end of times. [00:02:47]
It was the best of times. [00:02:49]
It was the end of times. [00:02:51]
Best of times end of times[00:02:52]
I was always on deck I was next in line. [00:02:54]
An only child with a pen and pad writing a list of things that [00:02:56]
I could never have. [00:02:59]
The walls in my house were paper thin. [00:03:00]
Every squabble seemed to get deafening. [00:03:02]
If my memory serves me correctly [00:03:04]
I made it a point to void and forget some things. [00:03:05]
Probably to keep from being embarrassed. [00:03:08]
Never meant to upset or give grief to my parents. [00:03:10]
Kept my secrets…hid my talents… [00:03:12]
In my head never under the mattress. [00:03:13]
Therapy couldn't break me. [00:03:16]
Never learned a word that would insure safety. [00:03:17]
So I spoke softly and I tip toed often. [00:03:19]
The door to my room was like a big old coffin. [00:03:22]
The way that it creeked when I closed it shut. [00:03:24]
Anxieties peaked when it opened up. [00:03:26]
As if everything that I was thinking would be exposed. [00:03:28]
I still sleep fully clothed. [00:03:30]
It was the best of times. [00:03:33]
It was beautiful. [00:03:40]
It was brutal. [00:03:41]
It was cruel. [00:03:42]
It was business as usual. [00:03:42]
Heaven. It was hell. [00:03:44]
Used to wonder if I'd live to see 12. [00:03:46]
When I did I figured that I was immortal. [00:03:48]
Loved to dance but couldn't make it to the formal. [00:03:49]
Couldn' bear watching my imaginary girlfriend [00:03:51]
Bust a move with any other dudes. [00:03:53]
Tone Loc was talking bout a “Wild Thang” [00:03:55]
But I was still caught up in some child thangs. [00:03:58]
Scared of a God who couldn't spare the rod. [00:04:00]
It was clearly a brimstone and fire thang. [00:04:02]
Pyromaniac. Kleptomaniac. [00:04:04]
Couldn't explain my desire to steal that fire. [00:04:06]
Now I add it to my rider. [00:04:08]
Like “Please oh please don't throw me in that patch of brier!” [00:04:10]
It was the best of times. [00:04:13]
It was the end of times. [00:04:17]
The school counselor was clueless [00:04:19]
Cause I never skipped classes. [00:04:20]
Perfect attendance. [00:04:22]
Imperfect accent. [00:04:23]
Speech impediment they could never really fix [00:04:24]
And I faked bad eyesight so I could wear glasses. [00:04:26]
Considered doing something that would cripple me. [00:04:28]
I wanted a wheelchair. [00:04:30]
I wanted the sympathy. [00:04:31]
I wanted straight teeth so then came braces. [00:04:32]
4 years of head gear helped me change faces. [00:04:34]
It was the best of times. [00:04:37]
It was the end of times. [00:04:41]
Now I wonder if I'll live to see marriage. [00:04:44]
Wonder if I'll live long enough to have kids. [00:04:46]
Wonder if I'll live to see my kids have kids. [00:04:48]
If I do I’m gonna tell 'em how it is. [00:04:50]
“Don't listen when they tell you [00:04:52]
That these are your best years. [00:04:53]
Don't let anybody protect your ears. [00:04:54]
It's best that you hear [00:04:56]
What they don't want you to hear. [00:04:57]
It's better to have pressure [00:04:58]
From peers than not have peers. [00:04:59]
Beer won't give you chest hair. [00:05:00]
Spicy food won’t make it curl. [00:05:02]
When you think you've got it all figured out [00:05:04]
And then your universe collapses… [00:05:06]
Trust me kid…it’s not the end of the world[00:05:08]