所属专辑:4 Your Eyez Only
歌手: J. Cole
时长: 08:50
4 Your Eyez Only - J. Cole[00:00:00]
词曲:Jermaine Cole[00:00:01]
Yeah[00:00:03]
For your eyes only for your eyes[00:00:07]
For your eyes only for your eyes only[00:00:13]
For your eyes[00:00:19]
For your eyes only[00:00:22]
Hey be dying on the daily[00:00:24]
It seems my dreams faded for far too long[00:00:26]
The consequences deadly[00:00:29]
Can't visualize myself as nothing but a criminal[00:00:30]
Control the block serving up rocks and stay subliminal[00:00:33]
'Cause young is hardheaded they letting off[00:00:36]
Full of adrenaline ignorant to what death can cause[00:00:40]
Ain't no coming back family dressed in black[00:00:43]
Plus it's hot now the cops outside it's hard to flip a pack[00:00:45]
And my daughter gotta eat her mama be stressing me[00:00:49]
Like I ain't the one who put them jays on her feet[00:00:52]
Like I ain't out in the field like that[00:00:55]
I might be low for the moment but I will bounce back[00:00:57]
Despite the charges back to the wall I fight regardless[00:01:00]
Screaming f**k the law my life is lawless[00:01:04]
That's what you call it ain't got to be no psychic[00:01:06]
To see this is like the farthest thing from heaven[00:01:08]
This is hell and I don't mean that hyperbolic[00:01:11]
I try to find employment even if it's wiping toilets[00:01:13]
But these felonies be making life the hardest[00:01:16]
Resisting the temptation to run up and swipe a wallet[00:01:18]
Or run up on your yard snatch your daughter bike and pawn it[00:01:21]
That's why I write this sonnet[00:01:25]
If the pressure get too much for me to take and I break[00:01:26]
Play this tape for my daughter and let her know my life is on it[00:01:29]
For your eyes let her know my life is on it[00:01:33]
For your eyes for your eyes only[00:01:36]
For your eyes do you understand[00:01:39]
For your eyes do you understand me[00:01:42]
For your eyes do you understand[00:01:45]
For your eyes do you understand me[00:01:48]
For your eyes do you understand[00:01:51]
For your eyes do you understand me[00:01:54]
For your eyes do you understand[00:01:57]
For your eyes only[00:02:01]
You probably grown now so this song'll hit you[00:02:03]
If you're hearing this unfortunately[00:02:04]
Means that I'm no longer with you in the physical[00:02:06]
Not even sure if I believe in God but because you still alive[00:02:09]
He got me praying that the spiritual is real[00:02:13]
So I can be a part of you still my pops was killed too[00:02:15]
So I know how part of you feels[00:02:19]
Maybe you hate me maybe you miss me maybe you spite me[00:02:20]
Life goes in cycles maybe you'll date a just like me[00:02:24]
I hope not I'm tired of dope spots[00:02:27]
And fiends that smoke rocks[00:02:29]
I've seen far too many hopes rot[00:02:31]
I'm writing this because me and the devil had a dance[00:02:33]
Now I see death around the corner apologizing in advance[00:02:36]
Don't know if I ever had a chance at a glance I'm a failure[00:02:39]
Addicted to pushing paraphernalia[00:02:43]
But daddy had dreams once my eyes had a gleam once[00:02:45]
Innocence disappeared by the age of eight years[00:02:49]
My pops shot up drug related mama addicted[00:02:51]
So granny raised me in projects where thugs was hanging[00:02:54]
Blood was staining the concrete[00:02:57]
Older I loved talked like they was above[00:02:59]
Maintaining a time sheet that slow money[00:03:02]
Picked up the family business by the age of thirteen[00:03:05]
Six years later was handed sentence[00:03:08]
'Round the same time is when you came in this world[00:03:10]
Me and your mama thinking[00:03:12]
What the f**k we naming this girl[00:03:14]
I told her Nina the prettiest name that I could think of[00:03:16]
For the prettiest thing my eyes had ever seen I was nineteen[00:03:19]
Took me two felonies to see the trap[00:03:23]
This crooked ass system set for me[00:03:25]
And now I fear it's too late for me to ever be[00:03:27]
The one that set examples that was never set for me[00:03:30]
I'm living fast but not fast enough[00:03:34]
Cause karma keeps on catching up to me[00:03:36]
And if my past becomes the death of me[00:03:38]
I hope you understand[00:03:40]
For your eyes do you understand[00:03:42]
For your eyes do you understand me[00:03:45]
For your eyes do you understand[00:03:48]
For your eyes do you understand me[00:03:51]
For your eyes do you understand[00:03:54]
For your eyes do you understand me[00:03:57]
For your eyes do you understand[00:04:00]
For your eyes only[00:04:03]
It's several ways I could've went out too many to count[00:04:05]
Was it the trigger happy crackers that the badges give clout[00:04:08]
Was it the young blasting frustrated[00:04:12]
Cause the cash running out[00:04:13]
Don't know how to act in a drought[00:04:15]
See baby girl I realized[00:04:18]
My definition of a real was skewed[00:04:18]
My views misshaped by new mixtapes[00:04:21]
That confirmed the shit I learned in the streets was true[00:04:24]
That real don't speak when they beef with you[00:04:27]
They just pull up on your street let the heat achoo[00:04:30]
And if a real hungry he gon' eat your food[00:04:33]
I was a fool spent all my time ducking school ducking cops[00:04:36]
Ducking rules hugging blocks that don't love you[00:04:40]
I pray you find a with goals and point of views[00:04:42]
Much broader than the corner if not it's gon' corner you[00:04:45]
Into a box where your son don't even know his pops[00:04:48]
And the cyclical nature of doing time continues[00:04:51]
My worst fear is one day that you come home from school[00:04:54]
And see your father face while hearing 'bout tragedy on news[00:04:58]
I got the strangest feeling your daddy gonna lose his life soon[00:05:00]
And sadly if you're listening now it must mean it's true[00:05:04]
But maybe there's a chance that it's not[00:05:07]
And this album remains locked[00:05:09]
In a hard drive like valuable jewels[00:05:11]
And I can teach you this in person[00:05:13]
Like I'm teaching you to tie your own shoes[00:05:14]
I love you and I hope to God I don't lose you[00:05:17]
For your eyes only[00:05:19]
For your eyes for your eyes only[00:05:20]
For your eyes for your eyes only[00:05:32]
For your eyes do you understand[00:05:39]
For your eyes only[00:05:42]
One day your daddy called me told me he had a funny feeling[00:06:09]
What he'd been dealing with lately he wasn't telling[00:06:12]
I tried to pick his brains still he wasn't revealing[00:06:15]
But I could feel the sense of panic in his voice[00:06:17]
And it was chilling he said[00:06:20]
Jermaine I knew you since we was children[00:06:21]
I never asked for nothing when times was hard[00:06:23]
I never had discussions with you begging you to help me[00:06:25]
I dealt with the repercussions of my actions[00:06:28]
I know you tried to steer me 'way from that shit[00:06:31]
But that shit was in my blood you know my life[00:06:33]
I know your mamma send my love[00:06:36]
In case I never get a chance to speak again[00:06:38]
I won't forget the weekends spent sleeping at your crib[00:06:40]
That's the way I wished my family lived[00:06:43]
But my granny crib was in the 'jects[00:06:45]
I had to interject like[00:06:47]
What you talking 'bout f**k is you getting at[00:06:48]
He said listen I got no time to dive into descriptions[00:06:51]
But I've been having premonitions[00:06:55]
Just call it visions from the other side[00:06:57]
I got a feeling I won't see tomorrow[00:06:59]
Like the time I'm living on is borrowed[00:07:01]
With that said the only thing I'm proud to say I was a father[00:07:04]
Write my story down and if I pass[00:07:07]
Go play it for my daughter when she ready[00:07:09]
And so I'm leaving you this record for your eyes only[00:07:11]
Don't you ever scratch or disrespect it[00:07:14]
This perspective is a real one another lost 'ville son[00:07:16]
I dedicate these words to you and all the other children[00:07:19]
Affected by the mass incarceration in this nation[00:07:23]
That sent your pops to prison when he needed education[00:07:25]
Sometimes I think that segregation would've done us better[00:07:28]
Although I know that means that I would never[00:07:31]
Be brought into this world cause my daddy was so thrilled[00:07:33]
When he found him a white girl to take back to Jonesboro[00:07:37]
With little Zach and Cole world barely one years old[00:07:40]
Now it's thirty years later making sure this story's told[00:07:43]
Girl your daddy was a real not cause he was cold[00:07:46]
Not because he was the first[00:07:49]
To get some pussy twelve years old[00:07:50]
Not because he used to come through[00:07:52]
In the Caddy on some vogues[00:07:54]
Not because he went from bagging up[00:07:55]
Them grams to serving O's[00:07:57]
Nah your daddy was a real not 'cause he was hard[00:07:58]
Not because he lived a life of crime and sat behind some bars[00:08:01]
Not because he screamed f**k the law[00:08:04]
Although that was true[00:08:06]
Your daddy was a real cause he loved you[00:08:08]
For your eyes only[00:08:11]