所属专辑:So-Called Chaos
时长: 05:07
Fourteen years[00:00:10]
Thirty minutes[00:00:13]
Fifteen seconds I've[00:00:15]
Held this grudge[00:00:19]
Eleven songs[00:00:22]
Four full journals[00:00:25]
Thoughts of punishment[00:00:27]
I've expended[00:00:31]
Not in contact[00:00:34]
Not a letter[00:00:37]
Such.munication[00:00:39]
Telepathic[00:00:43]
You've been vilified[00:00:45]
Used as fodder[00:00:49]
You deserve a piece[00:00:52]
Of every record[00:00:55]
But who's it hurting now?[00:00:58]
Who's the one that's stuck?[00:01:04]
Who's it torturing now[00:01:10]
With an antique knot in her stomach?[00:01:14]
I want to be big and let go[00:01:21]
Of this grudge that's grown old[00:01:25]
All this time I've not known[00:01:27]
How to rest this bygone[00:01:31]
I wanna be soft and resolved[00:01:34]
Clean of slate and released[00:01:37]
I wanna forgive for the both of us[00:01:40]
Like an abandoned house[00:01:46]
Dusty covered[00:01:49]
Furniture[00:01:52]
Still intact[00:01:55]
If I visit it now[00:01:58]
Will I simply re-live it[00:02:01]
Somehow gratuitous[00:02:04]
But who's still aching now?[00:02:11]
Who's tired of her own voice?[00:02:17]
Who is it weighing down[00:02:23]
With no gift from time of said healing[00:02:26]
I want to be big and let go[00:02:34]
Of this grudge that's grown old[00:02:37]
All this time I've not known[00:02:40]
How to rest this bygone[00:02:43]
I wanna be soft and resolved[00:02:46]
Clean of slate and released[00:02:49]
I wanna forgive for the both of us[00:02:52]
Maybe as I cut the cord[00:02:58]
Veils will lift from my eyes[00:03:02]
Maybe as I lay this to rest[00:03:04]
Dead weight off my shoulders will rise[00:03:07]
Here I sit[00:03:14]
Much determined[00:03:17]
Ever ill-equipped[00:03:19]
To draw this curtain[00:03:23]
How this has entertained[00:03:26]
Validated[00:03:29]
And has served me well[00:03:32]
Ever the victim[00:03:34]
But who's done whining now?[00:03:38]
Who's ready to put down[00:03:44]
This load I've carried longer[00:03:50]
Than I had cared to remember[00:03:54]
I want to be big and let go[00:04:02]
Of this grudge that's grown old[00:04:05]
For the life of me I've not known[00:04:07]
How to rest this bygone[00:04:11]
I wanna be soft and resolved[00:04:14]
Clean of slate and released[00:04:17]
I wanna forgive for the both of us[00:04:20]
I want to be big and let go[00:04:26]
Of this grudge that's grown old[00:04:29]
For the life of me I've not known[00:04:32]
How to rest this bygone[00:04:35]
I wanna be soft and resolved[00:04:38]
Clean of slate and released[00:04:41]
I wanna forgive for the both of us[00:04:44]
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